15th of November. 3:27 a.m
And it hits you. for the nth time.
So many thoughts, so many new experiences and it all leads to feeling like a lot of things in my life has been aligned. (Or is starting to.)
If a certain situation did not happen, maybe I wouldn't get to experience this side of life. Maybe I would spend years only dreaming about this.
Maybe I would've gotten stuck or lost.
Maybe I wouldn't have grown. Maybe I didn't get to realize a lot of things because well... you can't really see everything up close.
Maybe I would've only listened to their opinions rather than my heart (and my mind. or my imagination, as others would've probably described it.)
Or maybe I probably would've suppressed my feelings or stories lot more. the usual.
Or maybe I would've spent years wondering about the what ifs.
Well... everything you lose is a step you take. (Thank you, Taylor Swift)
I love talking about the most random things in life. I love talking about what I saw or some events.
I love sharing stories. (which made me love blogging). I hope when I tell someone about something, it wouldn't have to end up in an argument or something like having someone just do an "oh." or a "thumbs up" reaction on your long ass message about your feelings/stories that would end the conversation quickly.
I love new experiences - even though I'm scared of taking a huge step and I'm scared of huge changes. I love how it helps me "know" and build myself more.
I love growing. I don't want to be "watered down".
I don't want to be belittled. (Best believe I'm still bejeweled. *wink wink*)
I love supportive and genuine people - I hope to be surrounded by more of them. I love being silly and laugh a lot, I love being around happy people too. and not competitive + negative ones.
I love having something to look forward in life. And I love enjoying (and documenting) very moment. (Take the moment and taste it, you've got no reason to be afraid.) (Thank you again, Taylor Swift.)
I am learning to look on the bright side of things as well. It took (or it's taking) me quite a long time but I'm glad to see a huge improvement. (Hope not to jinx it.)
I think I'm doing better (and way happier) now. (Pls don't jinx it, self.)
4:11 a.m.
Good morning. And I'm going back to sleep.
See you on my next blogpost.
All the love,
Nikka.